baby's first steps

it's such a relief, to know that life need never be on a standstill. we can cartwheel and make a point to walk a new path.

i've somersaulted, i'm finally going to live my dreams.

no doubt the journey ahead is gonna have pricks but i'm certain that there will be healing and it's all gonna be worthwhile.

it took me time, but God finally blessed me with courage. i'm thankful.

lethal beauty.

sometimes, being too close can be lethal. sensitivity goes up and tolerance skydives.

the fragility of some friendships worry me, but true friends are beautiful whatever happens.

my conflicting universe.

i'm probably no longer an avid fan of romance. i still get drawn to fairytales though, and i'm probably living one right now.

the only odd emotion is that, i'm often out of breath. does he take my breath away?

this leash is a bulletshot in my head, it's a constant battle. freedom is the other half of me. commitment is beautiful, yet i long for the balance in life i once possessed with one who managed to find the balance in my solitary universe.

i'm in bliss,
yet i tend to slip away.

when will my heart be stolen? or has it already been?

to-do list.

1.mika's bunny bath
2.the pigs' steam shower
3.pigs' pen spring-cleaning
4.spring-cleaning session for my dirty nest
5.catch 8hrs of sleep at least once this week
6.confirm my departure date: bye you stifling bridge
7.drool at my soon-to-be possession: a sparkling new mobile!
8.start hunting for cny wear
9.purchase my travelling pass
10.read

urban legend.

have you heard of the stifling bridge that leads you to the brink of death?

it exists.

misplaced momentum.

i continue running, though i have no clue what's up ahead, the breathlessness drives my blood faster. i do not wish to think, and this run keeps me going. a marathon is going to wreck my feet but i have no courage to take a rest and come to face the reality that the world has not stopped spinning just cos confusion has numbed the emotions of my heart.

i'm confused. denial does not reduce the intense mess i'm in.

i shall just keep running, till someone manages to hold on to me so tightly, that i will just finally stop, and breathe, and simply allow myself to be held & clutched so closely that i may hear another heartbeat.

pale shades.

losing colors,
i'm almost translucent.

i need the sun.

lost in a whirlwind.

caught in a whirlwind, with nothingness in my mind,
the wind carries me wherever it wishes to go,
and i simply follow.

thoughts have deserted me,
all i can do now, is follow,
and i simply follow,
hoping to read the signs.