goodbye cushioned clouds.

i've fallen. a force translated me harshly back in time. scenes of my life were played, and replayed in my denying disengaging mind. reality had never come this close.

while majority of the world burn in toil, i stood still and let the waves of time take me forward. arrogance filled me inside out, i believed that my talent and intelligence will get me anywhere that i wanted to be. hard work was sheer nonsense, it was what others needed to get by life, not me. total haughtiness.

thinking back, i feel small, almost coming close to being invisible. i had been easy on myself. i had never pushed myself to be who i could be. i just lived each day as it came, or maybe, i did not even live it. i just allowed time to pass, on its own. time and i were almost like two separate entities, with no connections.

i was lucky, i was showered with unexplained blessings. God has been so patient. despite it all, He led me to where i am, and made me who i am today. for this, i give thanks.

i was thrown off the cushioned clouds earlier this afternoon, a conversation jerked me back to actualities and i'm so grateful because i'm finally going to walk my life, every single instant of it. at long last, i'm going to start living. for me, life is honestly, truly, just beginning.

i have never been this fortunate.